My sorta sappy post- reflections

So today I went to the new restaurant in Maquoketa to pick up a gift certificate for my Mom and at the last minute decided to eat there....by myself.  I hadn't eaten lunch yet and Mason was sleeping so I thought I'd give it a try.  It was delicious by the way :)  There were two groups of old ladies sitting there playing cards....for one second I was so jealous of them.  I dont wanna be old yet (even though I feel like I am some days already) but I thought how nice to not have to go to work and just decide it'd be fun to play cards with your friends on a Tuesday afternoon.  I guess thats why its called retirement- hopefully I get to see that some day.  so, next I stared out the window- and it was actually beautiful.  All the leaves have changed colors and the sun was so bright and Mason was sitting next to me snoozing away- smiling and happy having sweet baby dreams. Then came the sad wedding type music.... and suddenly I began reflecting on the past 11 weeks.  I actually had tears in my eyes thinking about how much fun I have had becoming a Mom.  I am so lucky to have been able to stay home and watch him grow from a little 6 lb'er to a big 12 lb 2  1/2 month old boy.  I started thinking back to July 26th and what a crazy whirlwind day that was (I think I'll post about that day later).  Then I remember coming home without a baby....and recovering from a c-section.  I feel like I can recall so vividly what I felt like...and remember thinking I felt better when I really didnt.  I can remember the day when I was like- NOW, I'm better.  After the first 5 weeks or so I'd say I felt like I had it together- a 'TA DA' moment when I felt like I would succeed at being a Mom. I'm so lucky and thankful for my wonderful family who have been soooo helpful.  They got us groceries, made us dinner, cleaned our house, let Michael and I have a little fun together- so many things.  I really have the best family in the whole world.  The last 6 weeks Mason and I have been able to spend so much quality time together and do a lot of shopping!! I can't believe my time being home has come to an end so quickly.  In a way I'm ready to return to work.  I know I'll be more organized and get my priorities straight.  I'm looking forward to seeing my fun co-workers everyday again and socializing with adults.  But, I am going to miss my little man so much.  I am so thankful he will be in good hands every day and for that reason I feel like it is easier for me to go.  I just hope I dont miss out on too much everyday. 
Overall the last 12 weeks have changed my life.  Not only for the obvious reasons, but so many more.  I think the biggest thing I've come to understand is that God doesnt give you more than you can handle.